So I may as well get 3, right? They're small, probably about 3 or 4 points each.
And then I ate all three while waiting for my computer to boot and download all my email. THEN I put them in the tracker.
So that's how I could only have 5 points left for the entire day before 8 AM. Well done.
Short of turning bulemic, however, there's nothing I can do about calories already injested. On the menu today: fruit, carrots and vegetable soup. Whoops. Stupid burritos didn't taste THAT good. (Must remember this moment for next time I feel a McDonald's weakness on the way to the office.)
There's got to be other people who've done this, yeah? I CAN make it through the day on 5 points, right? /headdesk
Friday, December 30, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
One-two Punch to Stress
Did an hour of hills and directionals on the treadmill AND an hour of yoga.
So there, work! Tonight, I win! (Directionals: walking backwards and sideways on a treadmill. Today, we did three sets of each on varying inclines. Oh, my aching glutes.)
Hero of the day! Smart pop kettle corn. It's a very nice salt-sweet blend that hit just the right spot this afternoon at work. Crunchy enough to make my boss's dorito munchings endurable, too.
Also! Bun ga nuong (Vietnamese glass noodle salad..stuff) is surprisingly healthy and oh so yummy.
Butter chicken simmer sauce, not so much (the healthy part, that is). However, served over mashed cauliflower with a little extra cayenne? It was a very satisfying way to get some rich Indian curry without blowing the points. And curry always gets me stars on my good wife chart.
AND, once I finish the bottle of water I'm working on, I'll have a happy face in every category for only the second time ever.
Today feels pretty good.
So there, work! Tonight, I win! (Directionals: walking backwards and sideways on a treadmill. Today, we did three sets of each on varying inclines. Oh, my aching glutes.)
Hero of the day! Smart pop kettle corn. It's a very nice salt-sweet blend that hit just the right spot this afternoon at work. Crunchy enough to make my boss's dorito munchings endurable, too.
Also! Bun ga nuong (Vietnamese glass noodle salad..stuff) is surprisingly healthy and oh so yummy.
Butter chicken simmer sauce, not so much (the healthy part, that is). However, served over mashed cauliflower with a little extra cayenne? It was a very satisfying way to get some rich Indian curry without blowing the points. And curry always gets me stars on my good wife chart.
AND, once I finish the bottle of water I'm working on, I'll have a happy face in every category for only the second time ever.
Today feels pretty good.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Still Here, Chugging Along
So I'm still here behind a massive stack of paperwork. The last few weeks in purchasing have been crazy busy. I was way burned out last week, so I am taking a little break today to try and pace myself this week and hold on to my perspective. (It's hotels, people. The sky isn't falling.)
I'm still chugging along. I did have a gain this morning. I skipped weigh-in last week because I was on my period, and I didn't want to know. With that, I made poor snack choices - stayed in my point range, but with unhealthy things. Then we drove to Louisiana for Christmas, and food on the road is always hard for me. McDonald's for dinner, then I snack to stave off sleepiness and drink Coke (some of which was not of the ZERO variety this time). Christmas in Cajun Country, my word. Half what I ate didn't turn out to be what I thought it was. We never seemed to be eating when I was hungry, so I'd end up starving by meal time. Between those, I know I was way off target. I didn't track, because, as I said, I mostly didn't even know what it was. I did not have any cookies or pie, however. Donuts for breakfast.
Most of the stuff is out of the office now; we divvied up on Thursday. There is still some popcorn and stuff, but nothing too tempting. (It's not the healthy kind of popcorn - most of it is coated in chocolate and other sugary substances.) I claimed 3 lbs of See's Candies, then took it all to Louisiana and left it with my father-in-law. And some brownies that were pretty wow. Nothing left at home either. There's still New Years, but I think we're going to try to stay home, so I think I can claim I made it through. I gained 1.2 lbs back right at the end, but lost 7 all said and done. I'm not unhappy with that.
Plus I've got half the office dieting now. One on weight watchers and 3 more just watching. Since most the people I go to lunch with are in that crowd, we're all doing well by each other. I think we'll pick up steam in January, and hopefully stay on track even after we forget our resolutions.
I'm still chugging along. I did have a gain this morning. I skipped weigh-in last week because I was on my period, and I didn't want to know. With that, I made poor snack choices - stayed in my point range, but with unhealthy things. Then we drove to Louisiana for Christmas, and food on the road is always hard for me. McDonald's for dinner, then I snack to stave off sleepiness and drink Coke (some of which was not of the ZERO variety this time). Christmas in Cajun Country, my word. Half what I ate didn't turn out to be what I thought it was. We never seemed to be eating when I was hungry, so I'd end up starving by meal time. Between those, I know I was way off target. I didn't track, because, as I said, I mostly didn't even know what it was. I did not have any cookies or pie, however. Donuts for breakfast.
Most of the stuff is out of the office now; we divvied up on Thursday. There is still some popcorn and stuff, but nothing too tempting. (It's not the healthy kind of popcorn - most of it is coated in chocolate and other sugary substances.) I claimed 3 lbs of See's Candies, then took it all to Louisiana and left it with my father-in-law. And some brownies that were pretty wow. Nothing left at home either. There's still New Years, but I think we're going to try to stay home, so I think I can claim I made it through. I gained 1.2 lbs back right at the end, but lost 7 all said and done. I'm not unhappy with that.
Plus I've got half the office dieting now. One on weight watchers and 3 more just watching. Since most the people I go to lunch with are in that crowd, we're all doing well by each other. I think we'll pick up steam in January, and hopefully stay on track even after we forget our resolutions.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Words Can't Bring Me Down
I've had "Beautiful" stuck in my head the last couple of days. It's my go-to girl empowering song. Despite what the song says, words can do anything. Right now, I'm using them to my advantage.
Last night, after my work out, I hit a pocket of, "F**k yeah, I am awesome!" I'm feeling a little less conceited today, but holding on to the feeling of being able to do anything with enough determination. I'm trying to think about the things I have accomplished and the things I like about myself.
Because if I can let words (and numbers) bring me down, I can certainly use them to pull myself back up and help me keep going, too.
Last night, after my work out, I hit a pocket of, "F**k yeah, I am awesome!" I'm feeling a little less conceited today, but holding on to the feeling of being able to do anything with enough determination. I'm trying to think about the things I have accomplished and the things I like about myself.
Because if I can let words (and numbers) bring me down, I can certainly use them to pull myself back up and help me keep going, too.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Reasons to Persevere
This morning, as I contemplated my dismal thoughts yesterday, I started making a list in my head of all the reasons why it's important to keep going. It's hard, yes, but completely worth the effort. And if I'm having to work more because I packed on 15 pounds last year? All the more reason not to give up and make it 30. I tried to write this so I can read it back like someone's TELLING me why it's worth it.
So, the list:
-Playing with your daughter for more than 5 minutes without getting winded. (Family soccer is in your future!)
-Hiking. Remember that second date with Bobby, hiking in Red Rock and breaking your tailbone, chickie? That girl would cry her eyes out if she thought that was the last time she'd beat Bobby up a trail. She laughed at the top.
-All those beautiful places in Mexico you have to hike miles to reach. The basalt cliffs? The clam-spiral creature rocks? The observatory where you can see two coastlines? Yeah.
-Skiing, kayaking, sailing, windsurfing. It wasn't always exercise; you used to call it fun.
-It's more fun to tell someone you're a gamer if they don't eye your flab and think, "You look like one..."
-You enjoy food more when you slow down enough to taste it. And something rich and buttery is special and delicious when it's not breakfast every morning.
-Cute clothes that don't need to be extremely cleverly cut to disguise and hide your shape.
-Is it really easier to stay the way you are with all the things it will take from you?
Fitness Goals:
-An unassisted pull-up.
-Full yoga class without modifications.
-Hold plank & downward dog for 2 minutes each.
Weightloss Milestones:
164 - merely overweight, never again obese
154 - halfway to goal
137 - healthy, not overweight
125 - goal!
I'm trying to think of some rewards. For my halfway mark, I'm going to buy myself a heartrate monitor. While it would be helpful now, I'm losing weight pretty steadily. I figure by then, it will be slower going, and I'll need a little help. I don't know about the other three. Well - 125 lbs, I'll need new clothes obviously. But I think I'm going to try to talk Bobby into taking a trip to the mountains. Depending on the month it happens, maybe even skiing! (Big maybe. Bobby shattered his wrist on a snowmobile and is afraid of skiing now.) Plenty of time to decide. I think leaving obesity deserves something and it's the first milestone, but I don't have any ideas. Something to ponder, I guess.
So, the list:
-Playing with your daughter for more than 5 minutes without getting winded. (Family soccer is in your future!)
-Hiking. Remember that second date with Bobby, hiking in Red Rock and breaking your tailbone, chickie? That girl would cry her eyes out if she thought that was the last time she'd beat Bobby up a trail. She laughed at the top.
-All those beautiful places in Mexico you have to hike miles to reach. The basalt cliffs? The clam-spiral creature rocks? The observatory where you can see two coastlines? Yeah.
-Skiing, kayaking, sailing, windsurfing. It wasn't always exercise; you used to call it fun.
-It's more fun to tell someone you're a gamer if they don't eye your flab and think, "You look like one..."
-You enjoy food more when you slow down enough to taste it. And something rich and buttery is special and delicious when it's not breakfast every morning.
-Cute clothes that don't need to be extremely cleverly cut to disguise and hide your shape.
-Is it really easier to stay the way you are with all the things it will take from you?
Fitness Goals:
-An unassisted pull-up.
-Full yoga class without modifications.
-Hold plank & downward dog for 2 minutes each.
Weightloss Milestones:
164 - merely overweight, never again obese
154 - halfway to goal
137 - healthy, not overweight
125 - goal!
I'm trying to think of some rewards. For my halfway mark, I'm going to buy myself a heartrate monitor. While it would be helpful now, I'm losing weight pretty steadily. I figure by then, it will be slower going, and I'll need a little help. I don't know about the other three. Well - 125 lbs, I'll need new clothes obviously. But I think I'm going to try to talk Bobby into taking a trip to the mountains. Depending on the month it happens, maybe even skiing! (Big maybe. Bobby shattered his wrist on a snowmobile and is afraid of skiing now.) Plenty of time to decide. I think leaving obesity deserves something and it's the first milestone, but I don't have any ideas. Something to ponder, I guess.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Scale Trouble
Yesterday, my scale rebelled. After a tough week, I dutifully hopped aboard early in the morning and waited while it scolled a dot dot dot across the screen. And then, up popped 173.6. What? How can that be? I lost 2.2 lbs after behaving very poorly? I waited a couple minutes and tried again. This time, I got 178.4. Gained over 2 and half? A third number had me walking away in disgust.
Unfortunately, I don't think it is my scale's fault. I have tile throughout my house, and it's all textured for maxium scale decalibration uneavenness. I'm a little frustrated. This morning, it gave me a low number again, and then a slightly higher one 4 times in a row, so that's the one I'm taking. It's a 1 lb even loss, putting me at 8.2 lbs total.
I felt really good after my workout last night. I read an article yesterday about not holding the rails on a treadmill (which I have been, the incline makes me feel about to fall off). So I slowed it down and let go last night, and wow, does it make a difference. I walked nearly a mile less and over a mile/hour lower than I have been, but I felt like I'd done double.
I felt good this morning, too, but decided to pick up the tape measure... and the book I used last year, when I was doing P90X to lose weight. When I did my fitness test, I weighed 166.2. I can't believe I gained so much in a year! This whole time, I've been deluding myself that at least I wasn't gaining weight since then, I was maintaining.
I've felt so good about how much I've done, and I haven't even reached where I was when I "started." I consider that my start, because I was holding a little baby in my arms, nursing in the wee hours of the morning, and an infomercial popped on and flicked me in the forehead. It was my "ah-hah." I did really well for about a month, and then I broke my foot. It was pretty bad, and I didn't go to the doctor because of our financial situation. It took about 2 months to heal, and I gave it a little extra because I was afraid it would still be weak and I'd hurt it again. In that time, Katie started crawling, and I weaned her (so feeding everyone got more complicated). Suddenly, working out at home was impossible. I tried a few different ways, and it just didn't work.
Once I paid off the bills from my C-section, I joined a gym. It was a lot harder doing the P90X routines there, though, and I kind of drifted around trying to find my way and didn't really see results. But at least I wasn't gaining, right? Ugh. Then I started working again, and gave up completely while I adjusted to the new routine. But I'm back at it now, working, running Bobby's business, raising a child, eating healthy, AND working out every week 3 days or more. I'm freaking super woman. (And if I say it often enough, I'll believe it, right?)
I don't know why this bothers me so much. I had forgotten I was in the 160s so recently. I knew I'd lost weight with my pregnancy.. I guess I just blocked it out when the number started going back up again. 54 lbs to lose just seems like a much bigger number today. And the 8 lbs I've lost from 183 seems more like 9 lbs I've gained from 166. (Not to mention the weight I lost while doing P90X. I'm not even going to look at how much it was.)
I really need to get my head back in this. Not think about how it's 9:45 and I'm starving. And there's still hurdles to jump, I've got a pre-open-heart-surgery party, a birthday party, and a cookie exchange this weekend. I have apples in the fridge, I know how to handle this. Then just one day at a time, no need to borrow trouble. I need to be strong.
Unfortunately, I don't think it is my scale's fault. I have tile throughout my house, and it's all textured for maxium scale decalibration uneavenness. I'm a little frustrated. This morning, it gave me a low number again, and then a slightly higher one 4 times in a row, so that's the one I'm taking. It's a 1 lb even loss, putting me at 8.2 lbs total.
I felt really good after my workout last night. I read an article yesterday about not holding the rails on a treadmill (which I have been, the incline makes me feel about to fall off). So I slowed it down and let go last night, and wow, does it make a difference. I walked nearly a mile less and over a mile/hour lower than I have been, but I felt like I'd done double.
I felt good this morning, too, but decided to pick up the tape measure... and the book I used last year, when I was doing P90X to lose weight. When I did my fitness test, I weighed 166.2. I can't believe I gained so much in a year! This whole time, I've been deluding myself that at least I wasn't gaining weight since then, I was maintaining.
I've felt so good about how much I've done, and I haven't even reached where I was when I "started." I consider that my start, because I was holding a little baby in my arms, nursing in the wee hours of the morning, and an infomercial popped on and flicked me in the forehead. It was my "ah-hah." I did really well for about a month, and then I broke my foot. It was pretty bad, and I didn't go to the doctor because of our financial situation. It took about 2 months to heal, and I gave it a little extra because I was afraid it would still be weak and I'd hurt it again. In that time, Katie started crawling, and I weaned her (so feeding everyone got more complicated). Suddenly, working out at home was impossible. I tried a few different ways, and it just didn't work.
Once I paid off the bills from my C-section, I joined a gym. It was a lot harder doing the P90X routines there, though, and I kind of drifted around trying to find my way and didn't really see results. But at least I wasn't gaining, right? Ugh. Then I started working again, and gave up completely while I adjusted to the new routine. But I'm back at it now, working, running Bobby's business, raising a child, eating healthy, AND working out every week 3 days or more. I'm freaking super woman. (And if I say it often enough, I'll believe it, right?)
I don't know why this bothers me so much. I had forgotten I was in the 160s so recently. I knew I'd lost weight with my pregnancy.. I guess I just blocked it out when the number started going back up again. 54 lbs to lose just seems like a much bigger number today. And the 8 lbs I've lost from 183 seems more like 9 lbs I've gained from 166. (Not to mention the weight I lost while doing P90X. I'm not even going to look at how much it was.)
I really need to get my head back in this. Not think about how it's 9:45 and I'm starving. And there's still hurdles to jump, I've got a pre-open-heart-surgery party, a birthday party, and a cookie exchange this weekend. I have apples in the fridge, I know how to handle this. Then just one day at a time, no need to borrow trouble. I need to be strong.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Bobby's Stupid Cold
So very tired. I've been fantasizing about going back to bed ever since I crawled out of it this morning. I think I may have caught Bobby's cold. Ugh.
I went to the gym last night, pushed hard, and left feeling great. We had Subway for dinner, and I continued to feel great. So great, I was bouncing around the house like a freaking ball in a pinball machine. Bobby asked when I'd snuck the Coke, taken too many ADD pills, overdosed on pseudophedrine... He was convinced my energy level was artificially heightened. But no, I was just extraordinarily hyper.
This morning, I feel like crap . I'm achy, my head feels stuffed with cotton and my sinuses with lead, and I feel like I stayed up too late and got up too early. (Slept 10 to 6, which is my normal sleep schedule.) I'd take a day off if I wasn't worried about Katie getting sick. With her in daycare, I've used my sick time as quickly as I accrue it since starting here over the summer. (I was a stay at home mom for about a year and a half. I got laid off a couple weeks before I found out I was pregnant and just didn't go back.)
I've just finished my fifth month here, and I've taken at least as many days off with Katie. (Not all of them were paid.) So, while I do have a day or so built up again, I'm reluctant to use it. Instead, I'm just going to think about how awesome it would be to go home and sleep all day.
I took my vitamin and a decongestant when I started this, and it's taken about an hour to get this far (I do this in between working, waiting for reports to generate or whatever). I ate some yogurt, too. I'm feeling slightly better now, but just slightly. Still, it may make the difference for me today. Fingers crossed that nothing awful happens before the end of the day. Everyone needs to just behave!
I went to the gym last night, pushed hard, and left feeling great. We had Subway for dinner, and I continued to feel great. So great, I was bouncing around the house like a freaking ball in a pinball machine. Bobby asked when I'd snuck the Coke, taken too many ADD pills, overdosed on pseudophedrine... He was convinced my energy level was artificially heightened. But no, I was just extraordinarily hyper.
This morning, I feel like crap . I'm achy, my head feels stuffed with cotton and my sinuses with lead, and I feel like I stayed up too late and got up too early. (Slept 10 to 6, which is my normal sleep schedule.) I'd take a day off if I wasn't worried about Katie getting sick. With her in daycare, I've used my sick time as quickly as I accrue it since starting here over the summer. (I was a stay at home mom for about a year and a half. I got laid off a couple weeks before I found out I was pregnant and just didn't go back.)
I've just finished my fifth month here, and I've taken at least as many days off with Katie. (Not all of them were paid.) So, while I do have a day or so built up again, I'm reluctant to use it. Instead, I'm just going to think about how awesome it would be to go home and sleep all day.
I took my vitamin and a decongestant when I started this, and it's taken about an hour to get this far (I do this in between working, waiting for reports to generate or whatever). I ate some yogurt, too. I'm feeling slightly better now, but just slightly. Still, it may make the difference for me today. Fingers crossed that nothing awful happens before the end of the day. Everyone needs to just behave!
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